86 a bunch of nathan. sorry but...i dont play second fiddle. I am still Matthew fucking Leffler. And you...are on the list of 86 people. No offense...cause I dont take offense to the fact that david ran to me and said...umm..our boy is kissing another guy. All that equals is...the cesation of me calling and texting and me going for one of the 4 guys I told the nihgt before I couldnt anything....me telling them....game on. Just as I left that bar and bought david and my food...I can easily move on. See...I dated Brent. I loved him and he treated me like a total prick ass...and so...untill you can meet several months...I wont put up with it. SO....lets go on and say that Nathan is A hot guy..but obviously not my guy. NEXT PLEASE.
I just want to add to this later on after I said it.
So david called me when he got home. And I told him I hate the idea that no one seems to be able to keep up with him and he isnt my boyfriend. Why is David the central boy always??? I expected tonight was ... that myt friends wouldnt tell me to move on and that the guy that I have been all about this past week is making out with Deno. what kinda name is that anyways? Sounds like he should be on the freddy frenstone show. But any how...at least i know a couple things. 1. He is awesome. 2. He is apparently less awesome than me. So...no more calls....no more text messages....sorry....but....i kinda expect a little more from a guy. You may show up at my house before hand ... but ... you'll find your invites will be far and few between.
All alone and though I feel alone...I know it is nothing more than just another day. So I thought I found someone to hold my hand...but I'll find someone who WILL wait for me patiently. Just as I will for him.
YEE ALL MATT LEFFLER EXPECTS IS A GUY WHO WILL PUT HIM TO THE SAME POINT AS I WILL PUT HIM TOO;.
just another day...dont feel alone...you are a live.
BUT TO YOU
IF YOU AND I ARE DATING OR YOU AND I ARE THINKING OF DATING...
ONE WAY...TO BE MY JOURNEY ..... THIS WAY COULD BE MY BOOK OF DAYS. ONLY ONE WAY TO ME. NO DAY. NO NIGHT NO MOMENT CAN HOLD ME BACK FROM TRYING AND SHOULDNT HOLD YOU BACK...I WANT EVERYTHING AND I OFFER EVERTHING. A NEW WORLD TO CROSS A NEW OCEAN..THIS WORD TOGATHER FAR AND AWAY. Make sense? No most likely cause you arent him. It is from a song...and my boy will know it...he will look for my journal and he will know i am seeking him and have so often found just less than him...and...
I have always waited for him. Only time.