I even showed up with James and Danny at Denny's with my earphones and mp3 player going.....only to take one ear out to explain to some guy from Chicago I couldnt understand what he was saying. Fuck them all....I was enjoying myself....and I didnt need anyone else.
I stood there at Denny's at 5 am with my own musical and I didnt need anyone and I didnt care about who was where. I heard my songs and I saw all I needed. I'm just dreaming.
Course When I landed at home alone, I heard the next song .... wise men say, only fouls rush in....and I thought of the lost love of everything in me...and I knew that it was past....he was gone....but.....he never thought that I'd still pay homage to the idea of him....he never realized that seriously....anytime I hear any song falling in love with some one I rehash me and him.....and thats why I am single....thats part of how I changed....I am not over him....I'll never be over him.
I am not saying at all times I thought of him. I actually rarely had any thought of Brent. Tonight I saw a guy I actually like...Bobby...I know such a name sounds so fake...but we said Hi. And I stood aside and watched him have so much fun on the dance floor and I admired his careful spirit. And I left. Dreams are sometimes best .... as only dreams.