I only have so much energy to fight anymore. I wonder if a tragedy verses a failure is a better end?
I'd easily kill myself if I believed in something beyond ... but everything I know tells me I am nothing more than a sappy carbon based thing that would cease and i am just not faithful or brave enough to do anything to escape my continued trap. ... and that sustains my continued fall.
Plus at the end ... who would take care of my cats? Thats about it to keep on treking.