Matthew Leffler (kymatt19) wrote,
Matthew Leffler


I honesty am holding up externally extremely well. My life is all aspects is substandard of what I want. Internally hidden behind this smile is a person about to burst into a crying fit screaming and hitting the ground with his fists. You can try to hide it with drinking and smiling...but I cant wipe the despair from my eyes. Those are the hardest things to lie with.

So yes I have lost my job. Have no idea what is next. No clue about stuff like health dept. I am wavering on and still trying to decide what I need to do about myself.

Basically my life is liquid. And I like stability.

With the crumble of the Old Empire...I was given the opportunity to buy a 42" plasma tv....normally 2799.00. My gateway special....$1100.00 Thats wild now I just have to muster up the dough while balancing life. I still have paychecks coming in, and 2 weeks severance...but I have no idea what to do.

Its all in the eyes.

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