After sometime of seeking to pull together this or that and trying to be something I guess I couldn't be...and in the result of that feeling as a failure I finally have focused on damage control and improving the life I lead.
Earlier I mentioned I felt as if I was on the deck of a sinking ship and the life jackets had been given out...well...the whistles blew and we abandoned a voyage that had been advertised as a vacation cruise only to find an ice berg in the Atlantic. Luckily no one lost...just the vessel we had choosen apparently couldn't carry us to the port of good hope.
On to a new chapter. On to LIVE.