Matthew Leffler (kymatt19) wrote,
Matthew Leffler
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And If I'm flying solo, at least I'm flying free...

So where are we? T minus 4 days and counting till I plan to initiate the Exodus. Then its on to dreams the way I've planned them. Today we await the word of Steve the prospective landlord. All hardwood floors, rather large apartment (dishwasher, of major importance to me!)....that unlike this one has windows THAT the sun can see in. So if you cant find me....look to the southern sky.

"And to those that would ground me...take a message back from me, tell them how I am defying gravity. I'm flying high defying gravity and soon I'll match them.:-) And nobody in all of us, no wizard that there is or was: is ever going to bring me down." - Wicked :-) God I love that little story!

We sit a week from our paycheck, and a week from it in the other direction. I like being here. Course if I get my apartment I'll be passing $800 or so towards the new venue. But I am excited! Here is kinda a training wheel life and I think of this move as closing the chapter I began here when I was 21. GOD! Only 6 years of course but honestly....think of the changes you experience as you become yourself. 21 to 26 I feel probably served as the sand box world for me. And...like all things, its time to end.

So I went around a certain someone's back and sought advice about love and waiting. Move on...was the message. I am equally excited about this chance. I mean it is like being on the phone with someone, you wait for them to let you go. While one on the line hasn't said it...a voice carried from the background that releases me. Obviously the next step is my focus. I've always had an unnature ability to focus on the now and not worry about the past. "I've made mistakes in my life, Matthew. But I tell you that I tried my best and tried the way I knew how." my grandma. When you consider 80+ years of decisions and mistakes, and triumphants it really is impressive I think to be at peace with the past. Unexpected last night I enjoyed an out of the norm conversation with someone whom I've known of but never really knew...and it was nice. So I am optimistic about all fronts.

I just drew a warm bubble bath...:-) So I must submerge for now. Catch you again, at the next orbit!
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